I am a straight girl, generally. I have been attracted to females when I was younger and was very lesbian before.
I met this awesome guy last Feb. He is an FTM and he is in a complicated open relationship involving slave-master and the leather community...he is a slave.
He expressed an interest with me in the spring and we have been flirting here and there, back and forth through FB and seeing each other at school. He stands with his legs wide apart whenever we talk, and has this super cute side-smile when he talks to me. He speaks to me different than his friends. He puts on a more mature and respectful way of speech.
I went over to his house once to sing with him on the guitar for the afternoon. He was so sweet to me, and we had an amazing time it seemed, besides a few awkward moments and my SUPA STRAIGHT GURL SWAG lol. I embarassed myself a couple of times mentioning how I used to be into lesbian music and I was SUPER shy, because at that point, I was very lusty for him and almost couldn't control it. We even talked a (little) about cunnilingus! :O and he was the one to say the word. As you can imagine, I almost died.
I have had a crush on him ever since he told me in class that he wanted to sing with me, in a super sexy voice. I was instantly head-over-heels.
I don't know why, but he's been ignoring me, or just not wanting to have anything to do with me. The last time he posted on my facebook was to a sexy photo of me with pink lipstick on saying "OH :)"
The last time we had a convo was when I asked him on FB to go to a movie with me, and he waited til I got back to school but I missed class that day and told me over messages that he couldn't go and we had to rain check it. I still haven't heard from him. I am dying to be alone with him and make love to him. I am sorry. But this is the honest truth. There is no other thing I want more right now than to connect with him.
I haven't really been on a good level with him since mid-september. It is Oct. 5 now.
Why is he ignoring me? I am very attractive, I have many guys chasing after me at the school we go to. I am social and bubbly, positive and mature. Every time he talks to me, he tries to get away as fast as he can, or he is too busy to go to a movie with me or anything else of the like.
It seems like he wants nothing to do with me, and I don't know WHY HE DOESNT LIKE ME.
I cry every night, because all I wanted was to get to know him more. He seems like a wonderful person, and I don't know what in the world I did wrong.
Are there any FTMs that can help me out and give me perspective on what's going on?
Many thank you's.