I need help from girls about this complicated relationship.?
In mid 2006 I was in residential treatment for 5 months for severe depression and attempted suicide. I met a girl in there named ashley, and she liked me. I didn't think much of it because there were a lot of those stupid kiddie relationships in there. I'm not an emo kid, and I wasn't in there socializing and trying to make friends, but we became friends. After I got out, we didn't talk. about 1 1/2 or 2 years later, I was given her myspace by another person I kept in contact with from there. We started talking again and she started to have feelings for me again, so we started hanging out a few times. Well after hanging out with her those feelings disappeared and she basically wanted to be friends. She did something that pissed me off and I stopped talking to her. Then about a year and a half after that, I was doing community service(for probation) at this thrift store. Well she was in there to doing community service(for a scholarship deal). We recognized each other but didn't talk. I noticed every time I would look around I would see her and she'd turn away like she wasn't watching me. Well the next day I got an email from her and she wanted to hang out. The first night I took her out, those feeling were back again for her. But something happened and we stopped talking again for like 6 months or so. Well she texted me about 3 weeks ago just saying goodnight out of the blue. We started talking for about a week and I started hanging out with her. She was talking about dating and everything often. I mostly went over to her house and hung out with her. We've been hanging out like every other day, sometimes more. Her mom loves me to death. She doesn't really have any family but her mom has friends she's known since before ashley was born, so they're basically family. They really like me too, and everyone does basically. Ashley has been saying she wants to take it slow. It started with the kisses goodnight when I would leave. About a week later, I asked how she felt about me. You know, any more or any less. Now she says she likes me a little. I asked her where we're at, and she said friends, but she doesn't know what the future holds. After that, she just stops kissing me goodnight. I'm 19, and she's 17, so she sometimes smokes these cloves called Blacks, and I buy them for her, but only sometimes, because I smoke cigarettes and don't want her to get addicted. I drive her around too, but only when we hang out. I don't like drive her to her friends houses and stuff, but when we go out, I drive. She offers to give me gas money, and pay for her own movie tickets, but I take care of it. Now last night we were supposed to hang out and when I was about to go to her house she says, "No, Don't". She said she was at the mall with her mom, which I believe. They are really close and always go to dinner and the movies and stuff. So I ask her when I can come get her. Her response is, "did you get me the pack or not?". The pack of clove cigs is what she means. I said maybe, why?. She said, "can you get me a blunt wrap and drop them off to me?". Now I feel like I'm being used or taken advantage of. She said the wrap is for a friend. I used to do drugs kind of heavy, so I don't want her to, and she only smokes pot once in a blue moon. So if it's for a friend, then I'm supposed to drop her stuff off and leave back home so she can go chill with a friend?(if thats even true) I don't think so. I'm nice, but not a pushover. I really like this girl, but I think by being to nice, maybe even trying a little too hard, I've F**ked this up. She likes me one day, then suddenly she doesn't the next. But she always wants to hang out with me and enjoys being with me. It's a real mind f*ck. Help? and advice?