My sister died alone in Germany. Does god exists?
I ask myself. What did she do to deserve this? What have I done to deserve this? For more than 20 years now (since I moved to the U.S.) i have just worked non-stop (2 jobs sometimes) and been to school the whole time (have few degrees). Never had a relationship, always sad, always depressed, is this just genetics? Am I doomed like my sister?
Maybe I should just smoke cigarettes until my lung collapses.
Why are some people always happy and live long and my sister had to go at age 45. She was the kindest person I knew in my life. Always put others before her. Yet, always alone.
i don't know what else to say. I am just disappointed in god.