Years and years of devotion but devotion that isn't consistently daily-basis, therefore my way of going all out is kinda hard to measure. Especially because of my severe cancerian shell, I tend to do things deliberately to not let the other one know, cos I don't want to be the one that's going all out, without any legitimate reward. Yes, be real here, I can't offer things without things in return, not necessary anything spectacular in return. Just even a simplest of caring in return is all I needed, nothing big nothing small, cos I believe a loving relationship require both sides to equally offer in same amount, back in the days I'm always the one that's more devoted, which really explains my prone of overly too committed in a relationship, and now it changes my view on relationship, I tend to keep it steady, hold back alittle, not overly going overboard. Cos I feel its fair for me and the other person.
I will teach them how to love. That's my confidence, when I'm in love, I'm severely confident in the things I do, especially romantically, passionately and sensually. I'm highly confident in my way of loving someone, and guarantee full satisfied offer, cos I'm a natural cater. I know how to please, how to make breath-taking efforts, know how to be heavenly affectionate and know how to melt that person's heart. That's the same reason why if things don't go my way or I don't get the result I want, it'll lead to crash and burn, crush my confidence and my principle on love, and makes me feel like world has just came down on me, hits me emotionally hard.
In terms of family and friends, i do the same thing in diff ways, make them feel my appreciation and effort, in a less romantic way of course lol.
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· 8 years ago