I was sexually assaulted but am too afraid to tell my mom. What should I do?

I had a fight with my mother earlier about going over a guy friends house. She said if I go then he'll rape me and even made jokes about me needing a good f******. I told her she's crazy and went anyways. Bad mistake. I was in his room playing xbox when he started kissing me. I didn't like it and tried... show more I had a fight with my mother earlier about going over a guy friends house. She said if I go then he'll rape me and even made jokes about me needing a good f******. I told her she's crazy and went anyways. Bad mistake. I was in his room playing xbox when he started kissing me. I didn't like it and tried to push him off but the next thing I knew, he was raping me. :(
I feel helpless because she was right. If I tell her she'll blame me because I was molested by her ex boyfriend when I was little and she said it was my fault for being alone with him. I was 5 at the time. I'm 25 and up to this day she still thinks it's my fault. Sometimes she completely denies anything happening and says I'm lying. My sister says this too. She rolls her eyes every time I mention my molester and says nothing happened to me. :(
It still affects me everyday and now being sexually assaulted makes my anxiety worse because now I know I can't tell anyone because it's my fault :(. What should I do?
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