You say you burden people by existing, that means that you are thinking negatively, and probably not being truthful about how you really feel, you sound suicidal. Just incase you need it, there is a suicide hotline to call if you are going to hurt yourself or kill yourself call this number 1800 273 8255. If you are not in the U.S., you might have to find someone else to help besides them. Now, as for living your life, why do you not care? I believe you might not care at the moment, but you are also probably feeling very sorry for yourself at the moment, if I had to guess, I would assume that you are being very negative, and not simply neutral like you are trying to imply. Try being positive about things, because no matter how you feel, you will actually die someday, and it will suck. Your body, and mind, while they are two different things, are connected, and when your body is dying, so is your mind, and the dying experience for the body is not a fun thing, it is scary and sad. I think you should try exhilarating your life and try to find something that makes you excited. Try to find something that gives you a sense of euphoria, just avoid breaking the law, or hurting others, or yourself, and you will be fine. Try not to take yourself so seriously, although life is a very serious thing, it is better to just go with the flow and chill. If you really don't care if you die, than maybe you could start a career in a job field that requires you to be fearless.
· 4 months ago