Listen up lady,
What exactly do you get out of being 'kinda open down there' - that you let men enjoy you, while you thinking it is fullfilling your internal desires? - seriously?
What do you get out of being in a relationship with a man who you know is scared to commit, and you just think it is a 'consent' based where we do not live in stone ages but more of a modern world. Such men nowadays will just use you and then dump you like a trash. Is that how low can one fall to let them be this way?
And then you may even go on further stating, it is really tempting and difficult. Listen up, I am also non-married, a muslim and living in a tempting society. If I can stay off these use-less things in life, why cant you? It takes guts to walk down the right path does it not?
Courage does not means doing what others are doing, it is doing the right thing if the whole world is doing it wrong. So be mindful.
Turn towards Allah rabul 'izza if you want peace of your heart and mind. Leave these haraam relationships and acts which brings displeasure of Allah rabul 'izza, and on top of that it causes you depression, stress, mental frustration and an addiction. You will be surprised how am I being point on, that is because I know what is the society is going on about, the inside and out.
You are still young, and you got alot ahead. Just putting things down on your desires and emotions, letting yourself get into the wrong hands. Why are you wasting your life into whats not worth?
Define your priorities of life, ask yourself why are you here? what is next after this life? and so forth. Make the meaning of life. Put a foot on your nafs (desires), and try to attain proximity towards Allah rabul 'izza - honestly if you can do this, you will be alot thankful!
I still have more to write on, but I do not want to sound some sort of 'preachy' or 'haraam police' just so people can put a card up there saying 'mind your own business' or oh 'do not judge me'
Its a sad state we live in nowadays, back days when people would say 'Fear Allah' they would cry. But nowadays, there is no sense of sharam and haya left yeah?
tho if you do want to talk or discuss about this, and know more. You can drop down my comment and let me know, will drop by email so that things can be more smooth.
sorry for the harsh tune, but needed that to cross something through your heart.
yes 301 False is back for a few