Am I wrong for leaving my boyfriend to pursue other things? I feel guilty but also trapped ? Any advice would help honest advice?

so I've been with my boyfriend for almost 9 years now. So practically all of my early 20's. (I'm not 30 yet) Anyway, he is a great guy, considerate and I do love him dearly. However, I feel like I am not doing much these days. Like he just got his feet together and is working 2 jobs like he wanted to... show more so I've been with my boyfriend for almost 9 years now. So practically all of my early 20's. (I'm not 30 yet) Anyway, he is a great guy, considerate and I do love him dearly. However, I feel like I am not doing much these days. Like he just got his feet together and is working 2 jobs like he wanted to make money and do what he loves which is handicapping. (Horses) anyway, we moved from the city to a rural town and there is nothing to do up here really, except for work..am I wrong for feeling this way? I feel guilty but i also don't want to look back and regret not living my life.... I already go back and forth to NY for a part time job and to see family but I know he doesnt like me being away, but when I'm in town there is nothing to do. I feel stuck. :( should I try to get a job in ny... also some more insight, I'm not trying to blame my boyfriend at all, so hopefully it isn't coming across that way. All he does is work now and we hardly ever go out and do things together and it doesnt help were in a small town where there isnt much to do. I have a friend in NYC who will help me get work even though yea I know I can get work here but I feel like there will be more opportunity out there to meet people and do things. Am I wrong for feeling this way? For wanting to have my fun?
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