I feel like nothing matters.
I used to clean for hours a day
And it developed into an unhealthy obsession. I would stay up all night thinking about all the dirt and bacteria that was still there, it was never good enough. The kitchen could appear sparkling but under it all I knew the truth. I spent 7 hours straight scrubbing the oven top one time, I followed everyone and picked up everything. I threw up on multiple occasions a day because I was not getting sleep, drinking energy drinks every day and hardly eating( not intentionally). I organized everything to the T and if it was moved or out of place I would become extremely frustrated. Eventually I got tired that I just stopped cleaning all together. If I can't fix it all then why even freaking bother, it will never be good enough. I'd stay up every night obsessing over something that I could never make 100 percent fixed. And I sit here and I watch the dirt build and it keeps going and no matter how much it bothers me, I do nothing about it. When I start cleaning it's very difficult to stop and I know I will start to neglect myself in hopes of cleaning every tiny spot of the house, every single minute of the day. I've spoken about this with family before, but they think I just make excuses for not wanting to clean. This is a bad problem I struggle with, any thoughts on how I can better help myself?
- 5 months ago
Sounds like you have OCD, you should go to a psychiatrist and get medication for that.
- RWPossumLv 75 months ago
You say, "How I can better help myself?" I can give you some ideas, and they might help but I'm not saying that these are all you need. I have a feeling that you should talk about your problem with a professional.
If you go to the Amazon ad for You Are Not Your Brain by psychiatrist Jeffrey Schwartz, you'll see that people with OCD think very highly of this book. You can also hear the testimonials of readers on YouTube.
As this article shows, Dr Schwartz developed a therapy for OCD that has been validated with brain scan studies.
He's one of the many mental health professionals who believe in mindfulness. If you're interested,
This is an answer to a person who complained of a phobia of germs. He rated it Best.
Some therapists have begun working on the phone. You can call your doctor and ask about this.
Legally, a therapist can work over the phone with anybody in the same state. Some insurance companies cover phone therapy. You can use the Psychology Today Find a Therapist feature to get a list of therapists in your state, find out who’s working by phone, and what kinds of problems they specialize in.
“How to seek therapy”